Picture tell thousands words. Since summer I have been struggling with the depression. For many months I have been trying to hide it, pretend that I am fine. But I’m not.
I found the way out from this situation. I decided to face all the fears. This is how I felt. Cold. So, this drawing really helped me to move on. I made this picture look unpleasant, dark, lifeless….even happy stickers doesn’t look happy anymore…even wings are fallen.
Even if you feel pain, it means you are still alive. If you are still alive, good moments will come. Sooner or later. They will. It takes time and patience.
Nothing can last forever. The good thing is that bad moments pass away, bad feelings fade out, things seems to fade away.Most important thing is to stay strong (even if it’s hard like hell).
So, this picture helped me to heal. Based on this experience, I suggest everyone to draw or write everything you feel.Face it, feel it and let it go. Now I feel fresh and full of life ! Now, its time for traveling, adventures, new people and cultures.
It’s all about finding light in the darkness. Hopefully, one day I will find bright colours again. Well, at least I’m trying all my best.
Also trying to do my 30 days positive challenge. Atm I’m quite skeptical but let’s see what happens. Hope for the best
Large hot chocolate/staying in
Some Sunshine, not too much (ain’t possible in Leicester)
Another self portrait. If you ever have question, look at yourself in the mirror and you will get all the answers.
I love orchids. I used to get them as a present from a very special person…but why should I wait for a present? So, I decided to bought it by myself. I just saw the perfect one, but on of the flowers has gone while I was driving home. Shame on me 😦
2015 brought me a lot of bad moments. Couple of days left and there are more bad things coming. I have been hurt so many times. My reaction was to just give up on everything and everyone, never touch the notepad again and stop writing….but you know what?
I ain’t gonna stop, I m just gonna look at this situation from another point of view. Everyone left? I never understood how people can just forget each other so quickly…
Wait, that’s actually really good because you know who is your friend when you are in trouble. Atm I am by myself. Well, at least I don’t have pink glasses on me. I truly know who is who.
I will do opposite, I will draw as much as I can. I ll train harder than ever. Even the weather is crap, I’m gonna go for a run tomorrow.
I believe all these bad moments makes you stronger, makes you unique person. I don’t care. If I meant to be alone for a couple of years, I m just gonna start enjoying it instead of crying/panicking/ blaming myself for being awful person.
If no one believes in me, I will be the one and only one !
Yesterday, I finally got my Wacom tablet.
So far, I do enjoy it but struggling with the pen a little bit ( I ll try to experiment and get used to it )
I am feeling like magician right now or at least fairy!!!!
Or it is too early?
I’ve got half of my NY resolutions sorted for 2015, so, next half is going to my 2016 resolutions.It’s okay, I will work harder than this year. And I don’t know why, but I didn’t include fitness goal, which is a shame. Although,now I can see why…probably because I don’t think fitness routine is a resolution for me…maybe because gym is my second home? I miss DW like crazy, I even had a dream last night that I am doing killing workout using stairs machine that makes me feeling dead anytime I use it…
When I used to be rock girl but had to study history and law )))