The strangest post you ever seen

2015 brought me a lot of bad moments. Couple of days left and there are more bad things coming. I have been hurt so many times. My reaction was to just give up on everything and everyone, never touch the notepad again and stop writing….but you know what?

I ain’t gonna stop, I m just gonna look at this situation from another point of view. Everyone left? I never understood how people can just forget each other so quickly…

Wait, that’s actually really good because you know who is your friend when you are in trouble. Atm I am by myself. Well, at least I don’t have pink glasses on me. I truly know who is who.

I will do opposite, I will draw as much as I can. I ll train harder than ever. Even the weather is crap, I’m gonna go for a run tomorrow.

I believe all these bad moments makes you stronger, makes you unique person. I don’t care. If I meant to be alone for a couple of years,Β  I m just gonna start enjoying it instead of crying/panicking/ blaming myself for being awful person.

If no one believes in me, I will be the one and only one !


27 thoughts on “The strangest post you ever seen

  1. Good Morning N,
    Just a note of encouragement. In spite of all the criticism, potshots and my own self doubt I struggled with dyslexia and ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder) since childhood I learn to stay in the moment and do the next indicated thing. As crazy as it may sound I played music which seem to be the right prescription to control the ADD. Why am I telling you this? After reading your post I not only empathize with you but I’ve there. I honestly believed at onetime that because of my dyslexia and ADD I would not be loved, liked or even listen too. My attitude changed when I was asked if I loved myself ? I remember thinking “no” because I have all these deficits and shortcomings. As narcissist as it may sound I had to learn to love myself warts and all. How in the world can I be loved or love another if I don’t even know how to love myself ? I learned to accept me and let go of negativity. Today I’m a published author (who would have guess a kid with dyslexia would be a writer) and have an accomplished career in doc’s and photography, all because I learned to love myself. I hope this helped just a little bit – just know that you are not alone.
    PS, It’s a New Year, now go out there and kick some ass.

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    • Hello Dave, thank you very much for the encouragement ! It really means a lot to me ! I think God never gives us the situations that we can’t handle. I think everything that happens, happens for a reason. After reading your post, I realized that if I don’t give up now and carry on I can achieve my goals. Thank you for you support and your story ! And you are absolutely right, its time to start loving myself and concentrate on good things !!! I feel much more motivated now !!!

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  2. Sorry you’re going through a hard time, but you have a good attitude. People can be awful, and it can be so easy to get dragged down. Anyway, just wanted to drop a note. Thanks for visiting my blog and following. It’s always nice when someone posts a compliment about one of my pictures (and it cheers me up when I’m having a bad day. πŸ™‚

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    • Thank you so much for your support and encouragement. I really appreciate it πŸ™‚ Your blog is amazing, now I will be frequent guest πŸ™‚ it motivates and gives hope !!!! When I have a bad day I browse all the positive comments and carry on what I am doing πŸ™‚ thanks again )))

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  3. Natalie I agree our challenges make us stronger and more fired up to make our life happen. I hope you find comfort in doing just that. 2016 can be your year if you keep at it. I believe and always have we are better to be by ourselves and flourish, than be with the wrong person. I chose single for the longest time and fed my own soul until my soul mate arrived. Thanks for stopping by my space today.

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    • Thank you very much !!! I will concentrate on my work as much as I can and forget about relationships.Its better to be alone, than with someone who doesnt really care and appreciate you. I will try to do all my best in 2016 πŸ™‚ thank you very much for your support !!


  4. Hi Natalie, thank you for following me!

    I write constantly. Everything that I feel, especially the down times. There is something very freeing for me when I do it. It breaks me out of every obstacle I face.

    The question about forgiveness has been mind numbing to me and we live in a culture that insists that forgiveness is key to moving on. I learned the following:

    You do not have to reconcile with the ones you choose to forgive.

    Forgiveness can only be done (for you) if you take the situation and embrace it, learn from it and treat yourself kindly. You are your friend right? And you wouldn’t let anyone hurt one of your friends so, be sure to treat yourself as you would a friend, a lover, a pet so on. So before you forgive, be sure to face all emotions and facts about the situation. I feel forgiveness should not take place because society pressures us to do so.

    I look forward to hearing more from you!

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    • Hi Robin, thank you for your advice! It is very helpful) I have got a shelf full of my diaries, so writing is like an addiction to me. And now I switched to art too. Now I can interpret my thoughts and feelings. It’s hard for me to forgive..because the closer you let someone, the painful he/she hurts, and they also know your weaknesses. Now, I am learning how to love myself again, because I felt that this is my fault that I let someone so close to me.Now, I start to being kind to myself and I feel much better. I am sure,I will forgive but it will take time. Thank you so much for your comment and advice!


  5. I believe in you!!! You’ve got this!!! Yoga helps me body mind and soul. I get some of my best ideas while practicing…often forget them by the time I’m done though lol. Big hugs!!!!

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    • Thank you so much for a lovely comment.It definitely made my day.I totally get you, I tried yoga but with the wrong instructor it almost broke my neck. Now I’m into fitness, my ideas for a short films came when I was running on a treadmill and working with weights. That is fun ! I am scared and delighted in the same time πŸ™‚ Thanks for stopping by and super positive attitude:)


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